*Sings* Don't look up Just let them think There's no place else You'd rather be.

well. its kinda back too..
...don't say I'm just back cos Sam is...no. I was REALLY suprised cos I was thinking about blogging the VERY day before he posted.. Great Minds ^^

anyway. I'm feeling SHIT!
I don't even know why.
I just don't feel like eating, sleeping, or doing anything really.
I'm alone, again.

oh yes. I moved out in the end. and now, I'm moving back home - due to the love of driving.
I REALLY want to drive!
I think it's a better cause. plus I won't be such a loner ALL the time.
Well until that fateful day, this is me.

Boring with people. Bored without them.
Oh dear God I was just listening to the pixies =S

Well... I should have perhaps re read my blogs, to realise where I've been going wrong, but No.
I don't know if I blogged when I felt shite, I'm guessing so because when I feel crap I feel like blogging, just to get it out. But I won't go into too much, maybe my blogs depress =P

Maybe I should have a warning =P
well... i may be going out. forgot. there be a birthday thang going on.
kinda cheered me up.

i will.. probably post when I'm feeling crappy again.
or when i have more news.

ciao 4 now
xx loves 2 the readers xx

dammn. winamp broke again *hits play* *sings* somethings gotta go wrong cos im feeling waay to damn goood

Well, here I am again. blogging update.

I am not moving out. Sisters don't like where THEY chose =S... so that it no more. but im oddly happy.
I don't want to live here. but I don't want to move out, maybe thats my childish side coming out, but I want money, I want stuff! I need stuff!
I need a camera... be is 35mm SLR or a digi SLR *crosses fingers* need 2 talk 2 college to see what I need.

I'm still looking 4 a job, so any ideas in the Swansea area do pleeease let me know.

Last night I came home from my weekend at Lews =P lol went to the beach on friday, went bk 2 lews and lived there until tuesday bout 6pm =P then home to bont for a little outage.

now I have cleaning to do, I was going to wait until I moved out but nooope. not now. imma sort things. It's quite the mess.

My List of things I want =)
Cameraaaaaaaa
New Bed ^^
New Desk?
HOUSE AND FRAISER ON DEEEVEEEDEE! =)

umm... and clothes. I NEED CLOTHES 4 COLLEGE BUT NOOOOOO MOTHER STILL HASNT ORDERED THEM. She can hav a fookin slap ayye(H) gona go bug her now actuallement.

so byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

I'll post sooons =)
The Bev
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*Sings* Can We Pretend I'm Amazing?... Instead Of What We Both Know?

*sigh* this is not a happy blog... i cant b arsed... and no, i also cannot b arsed 2 punctuate or capitalise any letters =)

life seems to be spiraling at the mo *puts thumb up sarcastically*
i need 2 move out... i hate it here. i feel empty and shit here, and this is after spending a weekend in...
i cant move out... i need a job...
i cant get a job at the mo... the job i''ve applied for i wont know about for 3 weeks... and then i may not get it... so i need to go job hunting...
when i get a job i want to spend my money on things i WANT... not living on my own. i feel so shit having my fucking childhood ripped away from me because of my bitch of a fucking mother who has isolated herself from her children and will now be lonely for the rest of her life, only having meaningless TWATS online being fucked up FREAKS =) im sure she enjoys it tho, fake love.

i hate her so much. and yes im sorry readers its troo. u may say... "you shouldnt hate your mother" well i cant fucking help it... shes making me miserable =)

i want the life every1 else can have. they get jobs and can spend the money on something they want.. (LIKE A CAMERA ='( ) but me... i'll have to pay £50 rent a WEEK... and basically save £15/£20 depending on how good the job i [may or may not] get pays...when everyone else can spend their money i'll b paying 4 a better life =(... thats just "DARLING"!

YAY!

Oh yes. i feel jolly good on this sunday evening.. sitting alone in my room... with no1 to talk to. well fuck it. i'll drown my sorrows =) or something.

*Turns up moosix*
*SINGS* Hey. I got my new shoes on, and suddenly everythings fine...
yeh i know i cant sing. but no harm in trying when theres nothing else to do and no1 else around ^^

yeh. well...
cloud of crap over.

The Bev
xxxxxxx

*Sings* I cry. I cry and I don't know why.The fever becomes my home...

*Sings* Fall Asleep With The Windows Open, Come To Me With The Worst You've Said and Done...Little Death Makes Life More Meaningful...

Well.. howdee.
It's been a while... and I'm not sure what I've been doing... Partay-ing, Been at Lews.. umm... small outage... town... um... and sleep =)

and now I have news. I'm moving out.. which probably means lack of internet over the new house for a while, so a lack of bloggage once again =P but i'll probably blog before I go anyway.

I'm sure I had loads to blog about when I decided to blog, but now it's all gone... I know the end *sarcastical thumbs up* .. which is basically me telling you I have to start packing and will try to blog soon...

Rugby today...Wales V Argentina =) COME OOON! XD wooo!!
um... ooosh and results on Thursday ^^ I can't wait...

...A few of us... not sure how many at the mo... are going up to Starbucks and are turning up at school with a coffee =) ... mainly cos me and Sam have planned this since... "revising" in Starbucks for Mocks or Yr 10 exams... or something =P and that's the plan. We'll be at Starbucks bright and early, and at school... early-ish =)

Wooooooo!
Hoping I do well ^^

ooosh! I'm also job hunting... had an interview yestarday and after having to buy myself a new "proof of life"/Birth Certificate... (which I realised last night has a mistake on it...), walking into the wrong building and being asked to make sure a sign was straight I made it on time ^^ and was interviewed. didn't take long and I'll find out how it really went in 3 weeks... until then... the search for a job continues so I can actually pay rent =)

Which reminds me... I have to sort out EMA ¬_¬

Busy, Busy... haha. In the end this blog wasnt toooo awful... but still as bad as they usually are... but har! You just read it so *laughs*

I'm off. packing to start ;)

Adios For Now

Bye Bye
The Bev
xxxxxx

*Sings* While we're on the subject, Could We Change The Subject Now?

Oh how I wish I could sing... gah. It sucks =P but oh well.Anyway, It's been a while... not a "Tom While" *Checks There’s Still A "Drunken" Tom Revising Pic Up**Tuts*! What a bitch. I read that blog... I read it... It's torture lol. It's a good read but here we all are suffering of boredom as he doesn't think of us =P lol hah! Well he's working now *laughs uncontrollably* While I sit here... bored... oh... well that's not as fulfilling as I thought, oh well =P

Back to MY blog =P I've had a good ... umm since July 25th =) ok...

26th
Towned with my sisterrrrz and Lew and DanDidn't do muchos...had din dins, Lew got sum filmzes ^^ then back to Lew Town and slepteded over watched a couple of the filmzes

27th
Towned with EVERYONE* =P
Simpson’s MOOOVIE ^^ twas pretty damn good ^^Back to Lews so I could get my bag ...then Looked after a drunk on the 27th =P
Every1 loves me now ^^ =P lol

28th
Went to IKEA© and MacArthur Glen ^^ Got a new teeee1st time to IKEA© I luuurve that place... cosy beds <3 sleepy me =P twas good Had a choccy muffin too Got a new teeee from Vans Land ^^

29th
Campeded on Oxwich beach ^^ was guuuurd =)There was walking, laughing, beaching, laughing, swimming, laughing, talking, laughing, drinking, laughing, talking, more laughing, swearing, laughing, watching sunsets, talking, SERIOUS MOMENT*(?), looking at the moon....

[Edit] *MIDNIGHT*

30th
I think its safe to say I was at Lew's this day... no wait!CONTINUED CAMPING... Oh hold on... after midnight.... it was the 30th... *copies and pastes camping from above*.....Skinny dipping at midnight, laughing, running, laughing, talking, laughing, hugging, pic taking (Of the sky, not of the naked ones sorry =P) umm and in the end attempted sleep... and laughing.

As you can see it was much fun =P lol
one of the best camping trips I must say ^^ cept the damn gnat bites =P but they is vanishing slowly ^^

We slowly made our way up the beach towards the bus stop to get out of there before we were found out =P so we took a picture of Trampy, left his "life in a bag" in a large bin near Oxwich Bay Hotel (WOOO PROM!) and continued on our way to the bus stop.The bus came, and after a small dilemma about change where the people already on the bus helped out we were on our way, trying 2 remember everything that had happened the night before... I was right, It WAS AN AMAZING "night before" ^^ =)
We eventually got back to Swansea and then home =)I was very, very hungry as Tesco closed as I arrived and didn't have any food for camping, though I did steal cookies and Doritos =P Anyway I made my family go out for food to fill up my belly[bola =P] and then i went to Lews...and helped put a trampoline together ^^ Then I started to feel unwell =( all flu-ish... and I'm still not 100%

GAH HOLD ON! Moosix stopped =(...

ok so.. then went home

31st
"Band Prac" lol it wasn't v.good, and I realised how crap I am at drums... I don't like them no more cos I'm not v.good =( but oh well... I don't mind. Went out 4 a lil kick about... umm then crashed on Lews sofa ^^

1st
Went out shopping 4 cloootheses, I gots 2 pairs of jeeeeans and a posh tee.. Still need summer clothes ¬¬ so hopefully online shopping..Also saw Transformers =P lol I DID NOT ENJOY... How Cheeeeesy =P Then I got home late and slept.

2nd
Over Lews... just hanging around watching Lew and Hannah argue ¬¬ Good thing Lew's working now, so I can stay away 4 a while... haven't felt that awkward in a while =P

3rd
BLOGGING =P ... not doing muchos else 2day... maybe go out.... we'll c... but for now... this is all

Any Further plans?
Not really no... =P attempt to get sum money together 2 go up 2 Richy-Land... umm and get clotheses 4 beaching. Also results day is getting closer ^^ =) I oddly can't wait, not to get results, but STARBUCKS! =P lol it's been a while, and I want to go look sophisticated... I'm thinking NEW TEE =P lol how funny would I look... *Takes Note* It’s a plan! woooooo XDAlso hoping to get a little off road driving practice in so I will actually be able to drive when I'm 17 =) It's getting closer! XD can't wait! Plan is... apply 4 provisional... ooo SOON! This week =)Off road drive until 17, then go on the rooooad WATCHOUT GUYS Nov 8th. You guys r n trouble! =Palso ...17th Theory test... Then sum lessons... and then TEST! Hmm test b4 next summer =)

*sigh* I cannot wait =)

woooo! =)

Anyway... I think I’ve done enough blabbering....
Going to get bored doing something else instead... ooo HOUSE! Missed yesterday's... =P

Ok sooo... Hope I didn't bore you too much!

Bye Bye Then
The Bev
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But I Want To Sing =(

I don't know what I've blogged about... I might have mentioned a little band I'm meant to be in, but probably not =P... umm well I'm a drummer... ish... I try anyway.

First band prac, Tuesday 31st July. Oh god, I cannot wait.... We'll see how good I am, lets just say... it's been a while... and I've got a new found love for singing.

I love to sing, and dammit I blame Blue October and Paramore and Avril Lavigne =P... So much emotion and energy seem to be released when they sing.

*sings* I close my eyes, and I smile, knowing that everything is alright...

need to sort out a mic so I can get opinions on whether to follow my dream! =p lol

ooo just realised. I blogged, last night, I was doubtful about whether I'd bother anymore =P I blame Jamie and Lew for making me come back to the blogging pages... anyway. It's done now.

Enjoy
The Bev
x

Bored of singing... =( im rubbish

so wat if im naive?... i dont care. i still want a big fat summer 2 jump up and bite everyone on the ass! yes! DAMMIT I WANT MY SUMMER!

im suprising even myself, but damn it.. im not really lookin 4ward 2 college, i cudnt really care less, but dammit this summer was ment 2 be awesome, but fucking flooding etc has ruined it all... just realised... shit!.... must punctuate 4 mr tom... one min... ooosh an must stop the "..."/"dot dot dot-ing" =P riiite... take 2

So what if I'm naive? I don't care. I still want a big fat summer to jump up and bite everyone on the ass! Yes! Dammit! I WANT MY SUMMER! (So Far, So Good)

I'm suprising even myself, but damn it, I'm not really looking forward to college, I really couldn't care less, but this summer... was meant to be awesome, but the flooding etc has ruined it all.

*Continues blog*

Plans ruined, when are we supposed to have the "End of Year Bonfire?" adding to the pollution that is starving our beautiful country of it's gorgeous summer? I want to add to the crap in the atmosphere. I want to enjoy the beach =( I want a tan so I can feel as hawt as you all seem to think I am (And I know you think I am...)[Damn! Puncuating after so long of typing crap is difficult]

I think I'm running out of things to blog about, even though I haven't blogged since the 11th... I don't know what to say. Oooo! Hold on, I can talk about my latest illness, I seem to have a brain condition. I have headaches =( All the time, and I don't think I can keep blaming Lew for much longer =P... I wake up with them, and they float back during the day, anyone got any ideas about what could be causing them? I'd love to know.

Umm... (note capital letter ;) I'm getting the hang of this writing in English thing =P )
I'm getting tired, but I think I'll keep typing, just because I can sense the enjoyment while you're reading. Yes. You're thinking "DAMN! I wish I was The Bev" or "DAMN! I wish I had The Bev" ;) *Giggles* Woah I'm drunker, I mean, more hyper than I thought. [No I'm not drunk, I don't know why I typed that =S but yeh, it's fun, don't you think?]

I want to start writing something (OOOO SORRY! MUST SAY! BREAKING BENJ JUUST CAME ON! I love them. *sings* I'm all alone, out in the cold.... *sigh* what a song ^^)
Anyway, continuing, I want to write... I'm not sure what, or why... (creepy random fact...Did you know that you eat an average of 7 spiders in your lifetime [While you sleep usually]... not sure where that came from... but bet you shuddered =P...Don't worry... I did too when I found out)


Sod it, this blog is not complete, nor will it ever... sod it. I cannot be arsed anymore.

Thats It
The Bev
x

... No moosix... My Names Earl on teevee....

god that guy is damn annoying =P... but that other guy, the fat one, is funny =P hehe

anyway! to the point... msn is being crap and annoying... even if i didnt alredy decide 2 cut bk its forcing me anyway. which just isnt gd, cos now i feel its not my self control =P lol but oh well.

umm... i dnt think i'll blog bout town, although it was v.fun =)... sams done a better job, so i'll leave it =P just take a look at his =P --->> links over there --->> although he didnt quite catch how scared me an becky were when the scary drunk/high chav wanted to take us out etc... i swear i thought he was gona just push past toms legs or jump over or something and come at us =P lol but phewwww it didnt ^^ XD

actually... i think i'll say a lil... frm my point of view =P...
twas normal as a trip to town normally is... except taking a short bus ride with 2 police..people =P that was ... odd... and perhaps me saying "TOM!"..rather loudly on the bus to inform him that starting nxt monday charmed takes the place of the beloved house at 12.30 everyday... but besides that, nothing 2 different... we reached town an went 2 castle square where we were meeting every1 and meet people did we do =P every1 came 2gether even a drunk on a bike, who fair play could ride rather well...assuming the cuts on his face werent from falling off...anyway we then all went our separate/seperate(cant be arsed 2 look it up) ways... we went... um... a la marche 1st... then got tix 4 oceans and then 2 dine!
if i wasnt saving money i wudda spent more, but as im quite poor, jobless, saving money 4 stephy-kins and wasnt 2 hungry... i had a coffee and chips and we all talked about tea drinkage, yes jonny its normal! teenagers CAN enjoy tea ^^ and me and sam pondered over my reachers name (im small..couldnt reach some things high up) wen wrking in the glam anyway, we enjoyed ^^ *RECOMMENED* [=P... if i cud remember the name of the place...] it was enjoyable, but dammit...didnt hav room 4 dessert! =P

eventually we arrived at the cinema to enjoy wat turned out to be our private screening of oceans 13 ...which again i shouted another name... rather loudly.. "Lloyd!"... i remembered my reachers name =P lol anyway... after getting a telling off from sam i got bk 2 watching the film, eating beckys nachos...and almost gravy tasting cheese and grahams popcorn which kept appearing infront of me...oceans was pretty damn gd, i likes how its so clever ^^ and doesnt try 2 hard 2 b funny ... but slips in a few moments ^^ twas good *RECOMMENDED*

the film ended... and we got up and left, commenting on how good it was, while i picked popcorn out of my belly button that had fallen down my top during the film... i was all clean and we hit the streets!

... a tuesday night.. and chavs where everywhere... standing at the bus stop, me, Becky, Sam and Tom... we were approached by a chav... he first offered sam and tom drugs and gave us advice and told us to pair up and get together... which we all found funny... when we said that we were good as friends he then asked the guys if he could take them off their hands... and ... me and Becky... were worried... he told us of how we'd hav an amazing evening, until he was interupted by the drunk bike guy again, but this time not asking for 50p, but for fags... after saying none of us smoked and proving to him a watch box was not a fag packet, we all enjoyed a little show he put on...revving up his bike as if it was a motorbike, something like wat the crazy frog (as sam noticed) would do... it was... rather amusing... ^^ they all backed off after that... and drunk bike guy found another mode of transport... in the form of a trolley ... he looked like he enjoyed... either that or as if he was about 2 spewwwwwwww ...couldnt quite tell.

the show continued with trolleys, walls, cones, car park and yet more chavs... the crazy bike guy eventually got out of his trolley after almost breaking a leg or 2 and got bk on his bike and chased crazy cone chav around the car park a little.. soon they all departed (to mcdonalds if we heard correctly) and the bus pulled up... and it couldnt have come sooner! =P
it had been a good day...

lol and i didnt wanna write about it... still think sams is better but hah! read mine 2 =)

today was good... ish... well... no... in parts.. =P
woke... 10.30 ish...i was proud considering bedtime was about 4. i tried 2 sort out sum events to fill my day, but my mother had planned differently... so instead of seeing lew, or going 2 stephs i sat in a car outside some random customer of my brother watching a man and his son do some type of DIY =S and played a little snake. eventually we left the spot i'd sat in for...frankly.. too long we made our way 2 tesco ¬_¬... wher i topped up and stocked up on sweets and general junk food... oo an ice cream... we then realised, we had to go bk home... to get my brothers fone to get "orange wednesday" its against my mothers religion to pay full price to c a film when theres an offer like orange wednesdays available... anywayyyy we went 2 the cinema (which was wat the whole thing was planned 4) and yes. i'd say... go c shrek 2 ^^ if u hav a childish side =)... its guuuuuurd... but.. im quite childish =)... it was still damn good!
i had 2 run out once... not because the story was too much to take or anything but my fone =O... steph needed monies 4 driving, so after the film finished we went on a hunt 4 an atm and got out
the money she needed and picked up... yet more things from a supermarket(not tescos this time =)... sainsburys) anywhooooo we went 2 stephs, sorted wats happening on friiiday and it was quite the happy little visit... we actually got on for the short amount of time we were there.

got home an the only thing bringing me down is the current situation of msn...and now dammit... its 2 late 4 sims... so i think i'll just grab a book an disappear into bed... did i say book?... i ment.. the remote of course =)...it'll probably end up that way..

with that... i bid u ...

GOODNIGHT!... sorry i babbled 4 so long... woah i suuuuuure can talk =P lol

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiite
The Bev
xxxxxxx
(that took about an hr 2 write... while watchin my names earl... but... still an hr... ish...)

oooo play and win b4 bed?... i think so! ^^ yay!

byeeeeeee im going to play!... And.. WIN aswell as play... if i win... then... yeh.. anyway.. more babble, i'll b leaving u now ^^

hope u didnt die inside too much ;)

*Sings* Keep Mooving On and On And On

Well. Today is my wedding day =P lol


and Sam, I just can't wait! hehe





not sure y... but im in an oddly hyperly odd mood... =) im quite the strange one

ooo PICCY 4 YOO! This is the start of time..(or 2days msn-age)...

Looky!

wat a nice way to start the day... as sam put it...
Me: delightful way 2 start the day
Sam: scaring the crap out of a retard

YAY! anywhoooo townage 2day ^^ but 1st House! i think im obsessed =P its gr8!
umm... mums bk... i think i sed that she'd gone 2 uncles wedding... not sure =P lol well..she did, shes bk now. came bk last nite/this morning. uch i dislike her muchos.

anyway... i think imma get ready 4 townage now...
(GODDAMN IT! cant stop adding "-age" to everything ¬¬ damn who ever started it!!)

anywhooo i'll blog soon... proly later after town if tis good.... or awfully bad... if its interesting... proly wont bother if its just average =P... but there'll b sum boring crap 2 read about soon guys! dont u worry!

Loves and Hugs
The Bev
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*crowd cheers* *sings* tell me that you'll open your eyes...

ooo indeed the crowd is cheering... on the teevee of course...

I've found something to do, you can stop worrying your pretty little heads.
The LiveEarth Concert is on... at the mo, snow patrol... jsut been on razorlight(lookin a "tad" gay) and Genesis ^^ (wilson =P) wooo tis good ^^

i thought i'd just mention that i hav things to do... not just because of this concert, but sam has appeared from the magical mumblé(s) =P (said Mum, blay)

woooo talkage!
anywhooooo *disappears and drowns in the moosix*
luuurvley stuffs.... as soon as a crappy band comes on im cleaning my rooooooom =)

The-Kinda-But-Not-So-Bored-Bev
xxxxxxxxxx loves xxxxxxxxxxxx

*Sings* The truth be told, the truth be told, I'm treading on my tippy toes, my tippy toes

*continues singing* I'm starting to worry about Ray

woooooo goood song ^^

Boredom has taken over. there is no magical sam online... or close enuff 2 drag out, there is no lew as he is making the monies. there is no ideas popping into my head of wat i can do... but..

MUMS GONE TO ENGLAND!
wont c her for a few days ^^ woopy!

she gone 2 uncles wedding. which reminds me. HAPPY 07.07.07! XD

i think im gona clean my room an play simmmmmmms... and maybe any other game i can find that i fancy playing... we'll c wats i got. i mite READ =O *gasps* im trying 2 get away frm the compooter... honest =P

hmm sims 1st i think... let my brekkie/lunch go down b4 the moving around-ness of cleaning my room... ok ^^ so here it goes *opens sims*

talk sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooon
Bored Bev!
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oooo no! i can watch mooovies... *browses thru downloads on server* oooo looks good. sooo i'll keep myself entertained. just felt like a bloggage =P boom! off i go. TRA! =P

enjoy your day ^^
Not So Bored Bev
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*Sings*... Oh No... Wait. SILENCE XD

WAAAAAAY!!! XD XD XD

"sorry i cant work today, i reeeealy dont feel well... at all"
"oh.."
"yes... im sorry"
"... cant work on carnival day?..."
"no... im sorry"
"..wel... i think we should call it a day then..."
"uh?"
"... i think we should call it a day"
"... um ok =) bye then"
*hangs up*

Shit. i need a job ^^ =P

WOOP GO ME!
Atleast i dont work with scummy fookin people! ... unles i do indeed get a job in turktown =P (hehe)

YAY! Need monies ^^

go me!
The Bev
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*Sings* And Now Im In Over My Head For Something I Said

BOO!
Blogging Spree!

Woop! XD
anywhoooooooo i remembered my dream 4 the 1st time in ... AAAAAAAAGES! and what a dream it was =P lol *reminises* *giggles* teeheehee
it was set at skool, with a few of my closest friends[yr 11 friends. as it was at skool] and we had finished skool but decided to go bk anyway just to hang out, so while kids were in lessons we snuck around skool looking 4 empty rooms. when we found one we'd hang around/mess around in it until the buzzer, then we'd hide until all the kids had settled in their next lesson. we found Mrs Garners English room was free, so we watched a film, but Mrs Hoyles(Tom and Lews Mum) came in and told us all off =S and told us to go home. but we didnt of course XD =P we carried on watching the film but slowly people disappeared... dont really remember much of the ending... then i woke ^^ =P funny dream =) woop!

i got work today... supposidly... but i have a headache and dont really want to dress up like a pirate infront of work collegues that hate me. i doubt it will be entertaining. so i'll fone in sick a lil later i suppose. i want 2 go in, i need the money... but... i feel lost and lonely working there so... i'll go job hunting... i think i'll fone in sick then go out job hunting everywhere after the race has finished of course cos i'll b requiring a lift... unless i get my mum 2 take me... hmm we'll c... i NEED a job. im thinking... dun dun duuuuuuun TURKTOWN!.... or Gors... dont really want 2 go 2 turktown, not just because of the "friendly" environment, but also because its a lil outta the way.but if theres nothing else then... it'll do. it'll b beter than being hated for something i didnt do and no1 even did. but oh well.in the words of... frank sinatra(i think)... "thats life."

anyway im sitting here in my luuurvely pjs, thinking bout my dream... thinking bout job hunting ^^ thinking about house hunting. thinking about happiness (WHICH WILL SOON BE MINE DAMMIT!*crosses fingers*) eeek!

anyway, best b off... gona go c if/wen i can go job hunting and *gulps* i shall fone in sick 2 work.

byeeeee bye then!
The Bev
Love You Readers.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

*Sings* Why Do I Feel This way?...Why Do I Feel?... Why?.

duno y im blogging really... just feeling pretty crappy and full of thoughts and decided to channel them in some way.

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ok so i've left it a lil long 2 actually write this post.... kinda ok now, but not... meh, sux 2 be meee!XD =P

dont really feel in a blogging mood... hmm... i shud start a Vlog=P did plan 2 a while ago... hmm... maybe if i liked myself a lil more i wud.. hmm cud do 1 an c i supose... or not ^^... nah nevermind =P

i've been thinking about... things, its really not good... when i think i feel bad and think more and it a downward spiral ... i just feel like crashing in bed about now, but i cud go 4 a hug =P i want my friends 2 b with me, i want 2 move out so i can actually get that. i want to be happy... i want to dream so i can c into my subconcious. i want sleep, so sod it. here i go

off 2 bed
nite
The Bev
xxxxxx

*Sings* God Doesnt It Feel So Good Cos I Got Him Where I Want Him Nooow!

crap. lol just wrote sum...then it disappeared =S and saved nothing dammit!

pah. anyway... lets start again...
this post is about

CAMPAGE!

The one declared most shitfaced just happened 2 be me, so.. this is my take on things..

IT WAS AMAZING!

muchos fun, good time with ffrinds... and we saw a horsey scratchin its bum on barbed wire ... ouch =P

it was good. even the cakey bits... even the shivering in the night...even the mysterious scratch on the arm...especially the company, and the minimal rain ^^

thanks to everyone for going, and looking after us all, and ..supplying tents =P

sorry to tom 4 keeping him away from the booze =P...even tho it wasnt urs 2 drink anyway ¬¬ hah. anyway, nxt time i'll share that lil bit more as i am prety damn lightweight anyway.

umm. i hav a cuple of pix... chicken... wine =P...i'll post and jonny i hope ur reading this!

... yes jonny that is wine... may i say.. Owned?
looks like sam stole all toms happy =P

har dee har. and... the chickens. twas delicious ^^...

here is tom. feeding the foxes =P

and here he is... after eating the foxes ^^.. *giggles*

doesnt he look full...and content with that meal

anywhooo it was a good nite. apologies for being a tad loud. next time i promise i'll b better.
yes guys. next time ;)

i was quite popular that nite, either Richy, Lew or Joe in the nxt tent foning/texting =p was quite entertaining... *giggles* i bet those who saw the flying fone thought so 2

and mite i say... quite a good fight for the best arse *shakes joe and toms hand* i do apologize sam...jamie?.. for not making the final, but i think the best man won: joe. congrats to tom for the fight. and joe heres your prize *hands arse shaped trophy*

stick that in your pipe and smoke it Lew. i did indeed also get complimented on my mighty fine arse ^^ so pah. u may not like it but others do.

richy. im sorry for the lack of replies for the txts. i will txt u now actuallement ^^

umm duno wat else 2 say... i bet theres something missing... i know i enjoyed an blah, but sams blog does say it all really... and yes, i remember most things sam said in his blog so i'll smile and nod and agree with those.

woop!

Happy Campers.

Good Night=P *looks at time... 3.46pm... yes. night..

GENESIS 2NITE! =... i hope its as good as it looks...[yes.sarcasm] =P will bloggage again soon... possibly later... depending on how 2nite goes etc.

*waves*

The Bev

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*Sings* The Ladybugs Came, To The LadyBugs Picnic

You may have noticed... the change in colour =P tis cos... i got bored... and meh... duno =) looks ok tho?... i hope ... anyway

sorting out all teh compooter stuffs b4 i goooo... gota make sure i got stuff backed up an got the stuff i wnt frm the server =P *giggles* house =)
woop!

anywhoooo kinda bored.... trying 2 figure out a way 2 c lew laaater... *ponders* must find out wats happening with mothers buggering off. we shall seeeeee

anyway. bored now... only lil post cos i cant b arsed 2 write much more and i got things 2 do

byebye now.
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*Sings* Your Cries Are All In In Vain

i was happy... now not so much =S
i hate it...
y cant i stay happy 4 too long...this better not happen wen i move out... i swear i'll go crazy...

In Other News: Superman is a bastard! thank yoo 4 the shmiles sam =)

back to crap =)
i was happy... everything looked good... i couldnt wait 2 move out...and still cant... but... i just dont feel like it will happen =s not sure y... but... i dont feel as if it will happen, i want it so much and i dont think im that lucky.and if i am... sumthing has 2 go wrong, because apparently... by the looks of things im not allowed 2 b happy.

richy i am indeed magical... i can write so much, but thats because i have alot of crap 2 write about, and i bet u cud 2... i think u hav better things to do tho... *cough* tetris =P *giggles*

i dont know whats wrong with me. may be the missing out on starbucks AGAIN for work... that i need to do or i cant move out... maybe just me... maybe the thought of life fookin up once again

im so pessamistic =( i hate it! gah! i want 2 b happy! i want to be able 2 c the goodness in everything! *keeps trying*

its just me, i cant do much right, when things r going right sumthing happens an things start to go wrong.
i think imma start thinking of things to sort 4 any eventual moving

i think imma play sims... make a happy family ^^ =P make meeeeee! i'll go 2 uni... or... maybe i'll b all growd up an hav my kitty! =O hmm who wants 2 live with me??? =P

wooooooo (sarcastic "wooooooo" of course.) ummmmmm

off i go gaming with richy ^^
byeeeeeeee

The Bev
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*Sings* Was It A Dream?

Goodbye to itunes.

i realised... itunes doesnt like surround sound. so DAMN YOU ITUNES! I now must learn 2 love.. WINAMP! gah... i dont wanna =( it smells.
*cries*

and! i swallowed my dice! =( noooooo!!!!!!!
and! i duno... but... AND THAT ASWELL!

i have works again later... makin moneys =) woopy! must b banked so i can escape this hell hole i call a home. pah! im soooooo gona love 2 b away from here... if we can manage that is of course... im scared =P im gona b poor ... but independant!

i neeeeed to do this. all those who dont understand... one day i may tell you. maybe... proly not but ha! all u need 2 know is, i need this. =) and when it finally happens, u will c a new me. a happier me, one that CANT b shot down so easily... if all goes well that is...

where is every1? ='( im soooooo aloooone =( *giggles* gd thing i hav things 2 keep me busy ^^
hmmm well... i welcome bk my loud moosixes its been a while... mainly cos i spent the end of last week at the hoyles' house =P and wat fun =) and im sorry tom 4 being there 2 much, but friday was actually ur fault! ha! anyway. home now, and not planning on returning to their house 4 a while...incase they get scared im not leaving again =P and another reason but i wont bother explaining, those who know me best will alredy know anyway.

BOOM!
no more exams... no more skool... gonna miss it =P its odd =( but hopefully college will b just as much fun and summer even more =P
*begins to cry* gah, lots 2 do b4 summer kicks in... i needs summery clotheses =O or i'll overheat and die =P it shall b good

anywhooo havnt writen on here 4 a while... the blog and this post...been sorting music... but got bored now, cant b arsed.. i'll hav 2 do it again wen i move out so sod it... i hav so much shite music on here now... beyonce *sacarstic face* if i turn into a chav i blame my lazy side =P thank gaaawd theres even more good crap 2 balance it out =)

anywhooo bored now... u can hav this blog

byeeeeee!
The Bev
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*sings* you're so damn hot!

phwoar, don't i know it!

howdee one and all. not quite sure why im blogging... dont have much else 2 do instead though...i have work in a cuple of hrs... but not much goin on til then.

no1 is online. and tbh im glad, it makes me think of other things i can do... which isnt v.much, i love music, so im sittin here listening as always, but no msn 4 me =) im blogging.. then i maay do that french listening thing i paid 60 WHOLE peeeeee 4! =P a bit of [no idea the percentage it counts 4 it] a gcse for 60p =P bargain! hmm, i wonder if they sell gcses on ebay ^^ *looks* ooo found sumthing ...

"OCR AQA GCSE Certificate - Novelty - Looks 100% Real
100% Exact Replicas Of Current Exam Bodies!"

£50 quid! free postage tho =P

lol. sum1's also selling geog and science coursework... all A*

anywhoo back to bloggage *closes ebay*

i met a hedgehog ^^ hes so damn kool! i shud go bk an visit him =P hes so awesome! =P i wanted 2 poke him, but i didnt wana get bitted... =(

5 EXAMS LEFT!
wooooop =P

i think im getting happier cos its all disappearing ^^ i noticed, this blog is pretty damn happy =P compared to my recent ones. and i'd like to thank... whoever made my last exam in a week 2moro XD =P and of course me for attending all exams ^^ an maybe sum teachers [who arnt trying 2 kill me with past papers and extra revision sessions i cudnt giv a toss about ^^]

umm.. wat can i say... umm.. i got new speakers XD they look like bug eyes...or those binoculars frm toy story![which by the by i havnt seen in ages! =O so sum1... buy it for me =P i will love u forever] i shall take yoo a picyture...give me a min...

what yoo think??

hmm anywhoo maybe i can find sumthin 2 do... shall blog soooooon guuuys ^^

*waves*

Love Yoo Guys!

The Bev

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*Sings* You Don't Care About Us

thought i'd blog... to keep my mind off the crap world im living in at the mo. thinkin i shud reeealy turn this blog into a big emo cloud of depression... but meh, i wouldnt want to do that to you guys. specially some of u guys *hi5s* (you shud know my fellow hi5ers =P)

anywhoo just felt like drifting away into the chair that keeps this ass cosy during these blog-ages and into the world of music - hense the name of the post. (which has sparked an idea, i miite name all my posts by a song im listening to at the time of the post start...but we'll c)

im hungree, there is sweet fa here. im tempted to eat my pengy-uin =p but i dont think i can =P still tis too damn awesome.

lol! im depressing XD XD XD how many "hmm"'s today?... well... if i was a liiiil more bored i would count, but alas i am not, or ever will be that bored.

2 exams 2day... geog and maths. geog was goooood. reeealy good, just hope the examiners think so 2... maths on the other hand... wasnt awful.. but wasnt gr8.. cud hav dun better if i'd known wtf was goin on, but i did make a funky hat - jst gutted cudnt hav my fone on 2 take a pic =P oh wellllllll. nxt exam is english language - paper 1.. im pretty bad at stories =p pretty bad at english, and if i do drift away during an exam then i'll come out all unhappy, so guys beware if i hav had a good writing time, then u will know it =P unless i snap out of it at the call of "5 minutes left" shall be interesting... maybe i shud do wat JP sed, lol ... prepare sum stories and just edit them 2 fit wat they want... but again, i hav no interest in exams, and am NOT that bored. this blog is keeping me entertained 4 now... and of course the thought of the AMAZING excitement of this evening - (i.e Not a whole lot)... hmmm maybe i will write a story.. or start my autobiography =P maybe not... i dont think im THAT bored

(wat a coincidence =O... wat songs this.. hold on...."Cake - Open Book" (cheers mr steer =P) first line... "shes writing a novel" =P awesome =P)

anywhoo bk 2 the exam.. i dont c the point... "write a letter to your great aunt thanking her for her present".. no point... now we have something called, a phone, or better yet... the internet =P... emails... and even INSTANT messengers. now that is technology =)

riiite, i'd better get bk 2 bitchin 2 my mum bout.. anything =) and i hav a form 2 fill in 4 tax or summat cos i now wrk..

Catch Yoo Guys Later!
Much Love

The Bev
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