Wednesday, 29 August 2007

dammn. winamp broke again *hits play* *sings* somethings gotta go wrong cos im feeling waay to damn goood

Well, here I am again. blogging update.

I am not moving out. Sisters don't like where THEY chose =S... so that it no more. but im oddly happy.
I don't want to live here. but I don't want to move out, maybe thats my childish side coming out, but I want money, I want stuff! I need stuff!
I need a camera... be is 35mm SLR or a digi SLR *crosses fingers* need 2 talk 2 college to see what I need.

I'm still looking 4 a job, so any ideas in the Swansea area do pleeease let me know.

Last night I came home from my weekend at Lews =P lol went to the beach on friday, went bk 2 lews and lived there until tuesday bout 6pm =P then home to bont for a little outage.

now I have cleaning to do, I was going to wait until I moved out but nooope. not now. imma sort things. It's quite the mess.

My List of things I want =)
Cameraaaaaaaa
New Bed ^^
New Desk?
HOUSE AND FRAISER ON DEEEVEEEDEE! =)

umm... and clothes. I NEED CLOTHES 4 COLLEGE BUT NOOOOOO MOTHER STILL HASNT ORDERED THEM. She can hav a fookin slap ayye(H) gona go bug her now actuallement.

so byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

I'll post sooons =)
The Bev
xxxxxxx

Sunday, 19 August 2007

*Sings* Can We Pretend I'm Amazing?... Instead Of What We Both Know?

*sigh* this is not a happy blog... i cant b arsed... and no, i also cannot b arsed 2 punctuate or capitalise any letters =)

life seems to be spiraling at the mo *puts thumb up sarcastically*
i need 2 move out... i hate it here. i feel empty and shit here, and this is after spending a weekend in...
i cant move out... i need a job...
i cant get a job at the mo... the job i''ve applied for i wont know about for 3 weeks... and then i may not get it... so i need to go job hunting...
when i get a job i want to spend my money on things i WANT... not living on my own. i feel so shit having my fucking childhood ripped away from me because of my bitch of a fucking mother who has isolated herself from her children and will now be lonely for the rest of her life, only having meaningless TWATS online being fucked up FREAKS =) im sure she enjoys it tho, fake love.

i hate her so much. and yes im sorry readers its troo. u may say... "you shouldnt hate your mother" well i cant fucking help it... shes making me miserable =)

i want the life every1 else can have. they get jobs and can spend the money on something they want.. (LIKE A CAMERA ='( ) but me... i'll have to pay £50 rent a WEEK... and basically save £15/£20 depending on how good the job i [may or may not] get pays...when everyone else can spend their money i'll b paying 4 a better life =(... thats just "DARLING"!

YAY!

Oh yes. i feel jolly good on this sunday evening.. sitting alone in my room... with no1 to talk to. well fuck it. i'll drown my sorrows =) or something.

*Turns up moosix*
*SINGS* Hey. I got my new shoes on, and suddenly everythings fine...
yeh i know i cant sing. but no harm in trying when theres nothing else to do and no1 else around ^^

yeh. well...
cloud of crap over.

The Bev
xxxxxxx

*Sings* I cry. I cry and I don't know why.The fever becomes my home...

Saturday, 18 August 2007

*Sings* Fall Asleep With The Windows Open, Come To Me With The Worst You've Said and Done...Little Death Makes Life More Meaningful...

Well.. howdee.
It's been a while... and I'm not sure what I've been doing... Partay-ing, Been at Lews.. umm... small outage... town... um... and sleep =)

and now I have news. I'm moving out.. which probably means lack of internet over the new house for a while, so a lack of bloggage once again =P but i'll probably blog before I go anyway.

I'm sure I had loads to blog about when I decided to blog, but now it's all gone... I know the end *sarcastical thumbs up* .. which is basically me telling you I have to start packing and will try to blog soon...

Rugby today...Wales V Argentina =) COME OOON! XD wooo!!
um... ooosh and results on Thursday ^^ I can't wait...

...A few of us... not sure how many at the mo... are going up to Starbucks and are turning up at school with a coffee =) ... mainly cos me and Sam have planned this since... "revising" in Starbucks for Mocks or Yr 10 exams... or something =P and that's the plan. We'll be at Starbucks bright and early, and at school... early-ish =)

Wooooooo!
Hoping I do well ^^

ooosh! I'm also job hunting... had an interview yestarday and after having to buy myself a new "proof of life"/Birth Certificate... (which I realised last night has a mistake on it...), walking into the wrong building and being asked to make sure a sign was straight I made it on time ^^ and was interviewed. didn't take long and I'll find out how it really went in 3 weeks... until then... the search for a job continues so I can actually pay rent =)

Which reminds me... I have to sort out EMA ¬_¬

Busy, Busy... haha. In the end this blog wasnt toooo awful... but still as bad as they usually are... but har! You just read it so *laughs*

I'm off. packing to start ;)

Adios For Now

Bye Bye
The Bev
xxxxxx

Friday, 3 August 2007

*Sings* While we're on the subject, Could We Change The Subject Now?

Oh how I wish I could sing... gah. It sucks =P but oh well.Anyway, It's been a while... not a "Tom While" *Checks There’s Still A "Drunken" Tom Revising Pic Up**Tuts*! What a bitch. I read that blog... I read it... It's torture lol. It's a good read but here we all are suffering of boredom as he doesn't think of us =P lol hah! Well he's working now *laughs uncontrollably* While I sit here... bored... oh... well that's not as fulfilling as I thought, oh well =P

Back to MY blog =P I've had a good ... umm since July 25th =) ok...

26th
Towned with my sisterrrrz and Lew and DanDidn't do muchos...had din dins, Lew got sum filmzes ^^ then back to Lew Town and slepteded over watched a couple of the filmzes

27th
Towned with EVERYONE* =P
Simpson’s MOOOVIE ^^ twas pretty damn good ^^Back to Lews so I could get my bag ...then Looked after a drunk on the 27th =P
Every1 loves me now ^^ =P lol

28th
Went to IKEA© and MacArthur Glen ^^ Got a new teeee1st time to IKEA© I luuurve that place... cosy beds <3 sleepy me =P twas good Had a choccy muffin too Got a new teeee from Vans Land ^^

29th
Campeded on Oxwich beach ^^ was guuuurd =)There was walking, laughing, beaching, laughing, swimming, laughing, talking, laughing, drinking, laughing, talking, more laughing, swearing, laughing, watching sunsets, talking, SERIOUS MOMENT*(?), looking at the moon....

[Edit] *MIDNIGHT*

30th
I think its safe to say I was at Lew's this day... no wait!CONTINUED CAMPING... Oh hold on... after midnight.... it was the 30th... *copies and pastes camping from above*.....Skinny dipping at midnight, laughing, running, laughing, talking, laughing, hugging, pic taking (Of the sky, not of the naked ones sorry =P) umm and in the end attempted sleep... and laughing.

As you can see it was much fun =P lol
one of the best camping trips I must say ^^ cept the damn gnat bites =P but they is vanishing slowly ^^

We slowly made our way up the beach towards the bus stop to get out of there before we were found out =P so we took a picture of Trampy, left his "life in a bag" in a large bin near Oxwich Bay Hotel (WOOO PROM!) and continued on our way to the bus stop.The bus came, and after a small dilemma about change where the people already on the bus helped out we were on our way, trying 2 remember everything that had happened the night before... I was right, It WAS AN AMAZING "night before" ^^ =)
We eventually got back to Swansea and then home =)I was very, very hungry as Tesco closed as I arrived and didn't have any food for camping, though I did steal cookies and Doritos =P Anyway I made my family go out for food to fill up my belly[bola =P] and then i went to Lews...and helped put a trampoline together ^^ Then I started to feel unwell =( all flu-ish... and I'm still not 100%

GAH HOLD ON! Moosix stopped =(...

ok so.. then went home

31st
"Band Prac" lol it wasn't v.good, and I realised how crap I am at drums... I don't like them no more cos I'm not v.good =( but oh well... I don't mind. Went out 4 a lil kick about... umm then crashed on Lews sofa ^^

1st
Went out shopping 4 cloootheses, I gots 2 pairs of jeeeeans and a posh tee.. Still need summer clothes ¬¬ so hopefully online shopping..Also saw Transformers =P lol I DID NOT ENJOY... How Cheeeeesy =P Then I got home late and slept.

2nd
Over Lews... just hanging around watching Lew and Hannah argue ¬¬ Good thing Lew's working now, so I can stay away 4 a while... haven't felt that awkward in a while =P

3rd
BLOGGING =P ... not doing muchos else 2day... maybe go out.... we'll c... but for now... this is all

Any Further plans?
Not really no... =P attempt to get sum money together 2 go up 2 Richy-Land... umm and get clotheses 4 beaching. Also results day is getting closer ^^ =) I oddly can't wait, not to get results, but STARBUCKS! =P lol it's been a while, and I want to go look sophisticated... I'm thinking NEW TEE =P lol how funny would I look... *Takes Note* It’s a plan! woooooo XDAlso hoping to get a little off road driving practice in so I will actually be able to drive when I'm 17 =) It's getting closer! XD can't wait! Plan is... apply 4 provisional... ooo SOON! This week =)Off road drive until 17, then go on the rooooad WATCHOUT GUYS Nov 8th. You guys r n trouble! =Palso ...17th Theory test... Then sum lessons... and then TEST! Hmm test b4 next summer =)

*sigh* I cannot wait =)

woooo! =)

Anyway... I think I’ve done enough blabbering....
Going to get bored doing something else instead... ooo HOUSE! Missed yesterday's... =P

Ok sooo... Hope I didn't bore you too much!

Bye Bye Then
The Bev
xxxxxx

Wednesday, 25 July 2007

But I Want To Sing =(

I don't know what I've blogged about... I might have mentioned a little band I'm meant to be in, but probably not =P... umm well I'm a drummer... ish... I try anyway.

First band prac, Tuesday 31st July. Oh god, I cannot wait.... We'll see how good I am, lets just say... it's been a while... and I've got a new found love for singing.

I love to sing, and dammit I blame Blue October and Paramore and Avril Lavigne =P... So much emotion and energy seem to be released when they sing.

*sings* I close my eyes, and I smile, knowing that everything is alright...

need to sort out a mic so I can get opinions on whether to follow my dream! =p lol

ooo just realised. I blogged, last night, I was doubtful about whether I'd bother anymore =P I blame Jamie and Lew for making me come back to the blogging pages... anyway. It's done now.

Enjoy
The Bev
x

Tuesday, 24 July 2007

Bored of singing... =( im rubbish

so wat if im naive?... i dont care. i still want a big fat summer 2 jump up and bite everyone on the ass! yes! DAMMIT I WANT MY SUMMER!

im suprising even myself, but damn it.. im not really lookin 4ward 2 college, i cudnt really care less, but dammit this summer was ment 2 be awesome, but fucking flooding etc has ruined it all... just realised... shit!.... must punctuate 4 mr tom... one min... ooosh an must stop the "..."/"dot dot dot-ing" =P riiite... take 2

So what if I'm naive? I don't care. I still want a big fat summer to jump up and bite everyone on the ass! Yes! Dammit! I WANT MY SUMMER! (So Far, So Good)

I'm suprising even myself, but damn it, I'm not really looking forward to college, I really couldn't care less, but this summer... was meant to be awesome, but the flooding etc has ruined it all.

*Continues blog*

Plans ruined, when are we supposed to have the "End of Year Bonfire?" adding to the pollution that is starving our beautiful country of it's gorgeous summer? I want to add to the crap in the atmosphere. I want to enjoy the beach =( I want a tan so I can feel as hawt as you all seem to think I am (And I know you think I am...)[Damn! Puncuating after so long of typing crap is difficult]

I think I'm running out of things to blog about, even though I haven't blogged since the 11th... I don't know what to say. Oooo! Hold on, I can talk about my latest illness, I seem to have a brain condition. I have headaches =( All the time, and I don't think I can keep blaming Lew for much longer =P... I wake up with them, and they float back during the day, anyone got any ideas about what could be causing them? I'd love to know.

Umm... (note capital letter ;) I'm getting the hang of this writing in English thing =P )
I'm getting tired, but I think I'll keep typing, just because I can sense the enjoyment while you're reading. Yes. You're thinking "DAMN! I wish I was The Bev" or "DAMN! I wish I had The Bev" ;) *Giggles* Woah I'm drunker, I mean, more hyper than I thought. [No I'm not drunk, I don't know why I typed that =S but yeh, it's fun, don't you think?]

I want to start writing something (OOOO SORRY! MUST SAY! BREAKING BENJ JUUST CAME ON! I love them. *sings* I'm all alone, out in the cold.... *sigh* what a song ^^)
Anyway, continuing, I want to write... I'm not sure what, or why... (creepy random fact...Did you know that you eat an average of 7 spiders in your lifetime [While you sleep usually]... not sure where that came from... but bet you shuddered =P...Don't worry... I did too when I found out)


Sod it, this blog is not complete, nor will it ever... sod it. I cannot be arsed anymore.

Thats It
The Bev
x

Wednesday, 11 July 2007

... No moosix... My Names Earl on teevee....

god that guy is damn annoying =P... but that other guy, the fat one, is funny =P hehe

anyway! to the point... msn is being crap and annoying... even if i didnt alredy decide 2 cut bk its forcing me anyway. which just isnt gd, cos now i feel its not my self control =P lol but oh well.

umm... i dnt think i'll blog bout town, although it was v.fun =)... sams done a better job, so i'll leave it =P just take a look at his =P --->> links over there --->> although he didnt quite catch how scared me an becky were when the scary drunk/high chav wanted to take us out etc... i swear i thought he was gona just push past toms legs or jump over or something and come at us =P lol but phewwww it didnt ^^ XD

actually... i think i'll say a lil... frm my point of view =P...
twas normal as a trip to town normally is... except taking a short bus ride with 2 police..people =P that was ... odd... and perhaps me saying "TOM!"..rather loudly on the bus to inform him that starting nxt monday charmed takes the place of the beloved house at 12.30 everyday... but besides that, nothing 2 different... we reached town an went 2 castle square where we were meeting every1 and meet people did we do =P every1 came 2gether even a drunk on a bike, who fair play could ride rather well...assuming the cuts on his face werent from falling off...anyway we then all went our separate/seperate(cant be arsed 2 look it up) ways... we went... um... a la marche 1st... then got tix 4 oceans and then 2 dine!
if i wasnt saving money i wudda spent more, but as im quite poor, jobless, saving money 4 stephy-kins and wasnt 2 hungry... i had a coffee and chips and we all talked about tea drinkage, yes jonny its normal! teenagers CAN enjoy tea ^^ and me and sam pondered over my reachers name (im small..couldnt reach some things high up) wen wrking in the glam anyway, we enjoyed ^^ *RECOMMENED* [=P... if i cud remember the name of the place...] it was enjoyable, but dammit...didnt hav room 4 dessert! =P

eventually we arrived at the cinema to enjoy wat turned out to be our private screening of oceans 13 ...which again i shouted another name... rather loudly.. "Lloyd!"... i remembered my reachers name =P lol anyway... after getting a telling off from sam i got bk 2 watching the film, eating beckys nachos...and almost gravy tasting cheese and grahams popcorn which kept appearing infront of me...oceans was pretty damn gd, i likes how its so clever ^^ and doesnt try 2 hard 2 b funny ... but slips in a few moments ^^ twas good *RECOMMENDED*

the film ended... and we got up and left, commenting on how good it was, while i picked popcorn out of my belly button that had fallen down my top during the film... i was all clean and we hit the streets!

... a tuesday night.. and chavs where everywhere... standing at the bus stop, me, Becky, Sam and Tom... we were approached by a chav... he first offered sam and tom drugs and gave us advice and told us to pair up and get together... which we all found funny... when we said that we were good as friends he then asked the guys if he could take them off their hands... and ... me and Becky... were worried... he told us of how we'd hav an amazing evening, until he was interupted by the drunk bike guy again, but this time not asking for 50p, but for fags... after saying none of us smoked and proving to him a watch box was not a fag packet, we all enjoyed a little show he put on...revving up his bike as if it was a motorbike, something like wat the crazy frog (as sam noticed) would do... it was... rather amusing... ^^ they all backed off after that... and drunk bike guy found another mode of transport... in the form of a trolley ... he looked like he enjoyed... either that or as if he was about 2 spewwwwwwww ...couldnt quite tell.

the show continued with trolleys, walls, cones, car park and yet more chavs... the crazy bike guy eventually got out of his trolley after almost breaking a leg or 2 and got bk on his bike and chased crazy cone chav around the car park a little.. soon they all departed (to mcdonalds if we heard correctly) and the bus pulled up... and it couldnt have come sooner! =P
it had been a good day...

lol and i didnt wanna write about it... still think sams is better but hah! read mine 2 =)

today was good... ish... well... no... in parts.. =P
woke... 10.30 ish...i was proud considering bedtime was about 4. i tried 2 sort out sum events to fill my day, but my mother had planned differently... so instead of seeing lew, or going 2 stephs i sat in a car outside some random customer of my brother watching a man and his son do some type of DIY =S and played a little snake. eventually we left the spot i'd sat in for...frankly.. too long we made our way 2 tesco ¬_¬... wher i topped up and stocked up on sweets and general junk food... oo an ice cream... we then realised, we had to go bk home... to get my brothers fone to get "orange wednesday" its against my mothers religion to pay full price to c a film when theres an offer like orange wednesdays available... anywayyyy we went 2 the cinema (which was wat the whole thing was planned 4) and yes. i'd say... go c shrek 2 ^^ if u hav a childish side =)... its guuuuuurd... but.. im quite childish =)... it was still damn good!
i had 2 run out once... not because the story was too much to take or anything but my fone =O... steph needed monies 4 driving, so after the film finished we went on a hunt 4 an atm and got out
the money she needed and picked up... yet more things from a supermarket(not tescos this time =)... sainsburys) anywhooooo we went 2 stephs, sorted wats happening on friiiday and it was quite the happy little visit... we actually got on for the short amount of time we were there.

got home an the only thing bringing me down is the current situation of msn...and now dammit... its 2 late 4 sims... so i think i'll just grab a book an disappear into bed... did i say book?... i ment.. the remote of course =)...it'll probably end up that way..

with that... i bid u ...

GOODNIGHT!... sorry i babbled 4 so long... woah i suuuuuure can talk =P lol

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiite
The Bev
xxxxxxx
(that took about an hr 2 write... while watchin my names earl... but... still an hr... ish...)

oooo play and win b4 bed?... i think so! ^^ yay!

byeeeeeee im going to play!... And.. WIN aswell as play... if i win... then... yeh.. anyway.. more babble, i'll b leaving u now ^^

hope u didnt die inside too much ;)